Week 20 Recap

Still trying to get un-stressed now that we've seen the baby and think she's going to be OK. A new rash appeared on my torso on Monday - I'm chalking it up to a post-stress flare up, but it's kind of worrisome. It's all over my belly and sides, doesn't itch or hurt, but shouldn't a rash mean something? Oh, what I wouldn't give for an uneventful time.

I feel her move all the time and can see/feel movement from the outside quite easily now. PJ says it's "creepy" to feel it, and so far the kids aren't patient enough to wait for it, so I'm on my own being excited about that, I guess.

It's starting to feel more real that this is going to happen, but still quite surreal. I'm always so impatient for things to happen, it's really hard for me to live in the moment and not be pushing for things to move along. But I'm trying to just slow down and enjoy being where I am when I am there.

Almost bought a carseat today for MaraJade. This is my other downfall: preparing. I'm so afraid of not having what I need when I need it, then having to rush out and get it, consequently paying more than I need to and/or not getting the product that best meets my needs, that I spend a lot of time researching and comparison shopping, often for things I don't actually need at the time. We know we'll need a new infant seat, because while we could get away with using MaraJade's current seat for the baby from birth, then having Jadey use this booster/convertible seat we have in the garage - thus not buying anything - it really is much more convenient to have a bucket seat when the baby is little. And the more I look into it, the seat we have in the garage is kind of a piece of junk. Which ticks me off, because I remember researching the heck out of it when I bought it for Mace a couple of years ago. Arrgghh!

Anyway, between looking at carseats (both for baby and MaraJade) and diaper bags (I really want one that's more like a purse, that I can just have my stuff in, too, so I'm not toting a purse and diaper bag around), I'm spending more time than necessary on the computer, for stuff I've finally decided to just wait a few more months to buy - because who knows what'll be out at that time? They're always making these kinds of things newer and better, and the things I want now might just be cheaper by then, right?

Oh yeah, I'm in full avoidance mode.

Measurements:
Waist: 31.75"
Belly Button: 34"
3" Down: 37.25"
Hips: 41"